Uninvited

The long watch of night
With the ever present past
Memories arriving
Like uninvited guests

Whispering to my weary mind
Without a moments rest
Replaying all the images
Of sorrow, remorse or loss

Making old emotions new
From the circling darkness there
Searching out the open wounds
That time never really heals

Gathering like actors
On a dimly lighted stage
The faces are all familiar
The lines never seem to change

Till one by one they take their leave and slowly fade away
Not to black, but only gray
With the coming light of day

SOLITUDE

I am here

Looking for something I can’t explain

Maybe a missing piece or a lost memory

If i could only find myself when I go missing…

But no. That’s never the answer

I am alone

Too near, yet too far away
all at the same time

Wishing I had more time, but not knowing what to do with the time I have

And looking for the way in
When I can’t find the way out

I’m trying to sort the colors

Or maybe, name the feelings

Perhaps sadness that has No origin

A silent companion sharing this moment

And the unknowable spaces between

Looking for the answers
to the questions I’ve forgotten

And waiting for solace in the setting sun

Empty song

Empty song

Color drains away
From the pale of time
So many years
Suddenly gone by
Just wind and sand
Now stinging my eyes

With a hollow refrain
And a shiver inside
In a homeless place
Shrouded by curtains
of time

I now stop struggling
And hold out my hands
In a gesture of silence
I surrender my pain

And lay down resignation
And all else I would claim
And pour away the effort
To take it back again

Let it flow like a river that empties me
And leaves me waiting
For what I failed to see

Inadequacy

Inadequacy

There’s no comfort here
No compassion

Alienation stalks
The remnants of empathy

And I am hunted

Relentlessly pursued
By the empty Spectre
Of Inadequacy

My hands vainly clutching
at the vacant air
Trying to grasp any reason

But there are none
Everything gone
Back down the darkening way
That led to this place

Leaving a void
That cannot be filled
A mocking sentience
That shadows my steps
And holds all against me

Driving me further
Towards the ruins
Of my own design
Scrambling to find
Yet another place to hide

Equally

We were never the same

Never really alike

All our flaws were different

Few virtues to be claimed

Still we (sort of) walked together

Into my deepening twilight

Where I found myself abandoned to my thoughts and to my fears

Years brought many changes

One stands out above the rest

I’m now equally indifferent to the fact we’re not the same

Equally indifferent to the fact that there is no one left to blame